Monday, January 23, 2012


Yesterday was like every other Sunday.
We got up, went to church, came home after the first hour because Tenley cut about 6 teeth last week and was getting quite restless, came home and watched a movie.
Tenley was watching with us, and would play with her toys in between trips up and down the stairs like she always does. She loves going up and down the stairs so i let her, i just keep a close eye on her.
I watched as she came back up, and she stood at the top, holding onto the railing. She must have just lost her balance, and went tumbling down.
It seemed as if it were in slow motion as she fell, and Adam and I both ran to catch her.
Unfortunately we weren't quick enough.

We have tried different types of gates for the top of the stairs, but the way the railings are designed, nothing fits or stays on. So despite our efforts, we have no gate, but obviously never leave her alone while playing or near the stairs.

I keep playing last night over and over in my head, wondering what I could have done to stop the fall.

We calmed her down quite quickly, and so I let her down to play with her toys.
As soon as she tried to crawl, she collapsed on her left arm, and I knew something was wrong.
Immediately we got ready to take her to the hospital.
We ended up being there for about 5 hours, and she was a little angel.
She was completely herself, laughing and making funny faces, and entertaining everyone in the waiting room.
Around the 3rd hour, we still hadn't been seen and I thought that it was probably a sprain, only because she was so happy and I had expected a sad miserable girl if it were actually broken.
Shortly after that we were taken back to see a doctor and very quickly had an X-ray done on her arm.
The results came back that her wrist, or her Radius bone was in fact broken and she would need to wear a cast for 4-6 weeks.
This broke my heart, and I was extremely emotional.
How could my 13 month old have a broken arm?
How did she have such a bad fall and I couldn't get to her in time to stop it?
Theres mommy guilt for ya.

She was again, a superstar as the orthopedic tech put the cast on, and was so curious about what he was doing to her.
She has slept all night, but I cant say the same for me.
I've been up most of the night, listening for her, and going over and over in my head everything that happened yesterday.

I know kids are resilient, and tough, and bounce back after things like this, but it still makes me incredibly sad that this happened.
As a mother, my number one priority is to keep her safe, and this is the first time I've felt like I wasn't able to do that.
Although its so heartbreaking to see her in a cast, she looks pretty cute :)

Send positive thoughts her way for a speedy recovery :)

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I love to write down my feelings and share them with whoever is interested. I love my small, growing family and feel so blessed to have such a loving, supportive husband who is always by my side.